Lindsay's Last meal....

Oh, it was good....So Good!!!

My belly is full with McDonald's goodness. Just the way I like it: 10 piece chicken nugget, 3 honeys, regular fry, and a diet coke. I even filled up my soda again before I left. I never do that. My belly is warm and happy.

I have always believed that I would make a really bad Catholic. Not because of anything inparticular, just cause I have a natural instinct to go my own way, and to put my foot in my mouth. I have always seen myself never fitting in, violating all these traditions that have been apart of their faith for thousands of years. Like the lil peguine in the movie "Happy Feet". I imagine going up for communion and reaching for the cracker and my friend Father Bill smacking me in the head....You're not suppose to reach for crackers.

But there are a few traditions that Catholics do that I uphold. I find them important to recognize. One of them is Lent. This is the time that we recognize Jesus' 40 days in the desert being tempted, people usually give something up, and don't eat meat on Fridays. This year I have decided to give up multiple things. One, because it is Lent and I want to honor it. Two, because it is 2009, I need to give up things that will challenge my character for 40 days!!

The Things to be sacrificed starting tomorrow are:

#1) No fast food. This is defined as a resturant that doesn not serve you at your table. This does not include Qdoba but does include Mondello's.
#2) No french fries. This is my favorite food. They are ketchup transporters. They are yum.
#3) No alcohol. Not that I am some kind of junkie, I am just wanting to give up things I want but don't really ever need.
#4) No soda. No problem. I only drink it for the caffine, I'll take up black tea.
#5) No Days of Our Lives. I have watched it constistantly since the age of 12. It is time to let it go and let that hour be used more efficiently over the next 40 days. And hopefully over that time everyone will find out that Nicole has Sami's baby. That storyline sucks. (Leave her, EJ!!)

Those are definite. I am excited to see how these habits change me from day to day. Will I stop craving ketchup in the night? Will I loose my sense of self from 1pm-2pm? Will I detox in some way from the grossness of some of my habits? I hope so!! I hope so for all of them!!

You see, because it is only by challenge do we build our character. It is the point of this blog, to challenge and change. It is the reason Jesus went cruising around the desert for 40 days. To build (and prove) his godly character!!

That is why, even if you are religious or not! I challenge you all to give something up with me for the next 40 days. Bust your cycle! Change the hapits of your life. Even if it is something small, you will see the challenge pop up and pick on you in small ways. You will still experience it!

If you are up for the challenge I ask that you post a comment of what you are going to drop for the next 40 days and how you expect it to bust your cycle!

Remember: You can't get to there by doing nothing....

An Unexpected Surprise....

Email #1

Jenn,

I haven't received any mail over the last week. Not even a Wal-mart add. I was told that this week would be when I found out about my status at Denver Seminary. Is there any way I can find out?

Lindsay

Email #2

Hi Lindsay,

It’s been a crazy afternoon around here. Sorry I wasn’t able to get back to you sooner.

I just got your application back from review today. Congratulations on your acceptance into the M.A. COCC program! :)

Your application letter hasn’t been sent yet, but will be shortly. If you’d like to start applying for scholarships, since the deadline is coming up on April 1^st, please visit https://my.densem.edu/ics/Admissions/Financial_Aid.jnz for information. The document titled “2009-2010 Financial Aid Packet” will probably be the best place to start for the most comprehensive information.

Welcome to the team! :)

Call or e-mail with questions.

Jenn






Thank Goodness....

Waiting....Being Luney....And Postal....

I will always be the first to admit my emotional craziness...

I hadn't received mail since Friday. Friday. That is nearly a whole week. A whole week without a Wal-mart add, car advertisements, or a letter from Denver Seminary....

There are only so many times you can go out and see if you have mail, while screaming at the top of your lungs before your neighbors think your crazy. And there are only so many times you can curse the cute little old man that brings your mail before you begin to think you're crazy. So what can you do?

The way I see it you have two options: (A) Wait, patiently, maybe clean your house, or do extra work to keep your mind off of things. OR (B) Be MORE crazy, calling everyone you know who is involved with your letter (The local US postal office, the Federal US postal office, The University Admissions office, The University's Office of Registrar, etc.) Trying to track it down, or find out what it said. I chose (B).

After spending a good hour making sure that all these people knew EXACTLY who I was and on what level of Luneyville I was living on; I was back, waiting, sitting, and overanalying every conversation. "Why did Denver Seminary pass me around to so many people? If I had made it in, why didn't they just tell me I made it in? Do they not like to give bad news over the phone? Why do I have to wait for a certain person to call me back?" "When the person who put me on hold pick up again, why did she sound so dismal?"

All answers have left me to the same conclusion that I must share with you all and begin to prepare myself for: I didn't get in. I didn't. There is no way, not with how they were talking to me on the phone, and let's face it my application was not that great! I have a good GPA and great references, but I still have a lot of blunders that they have to look at. I raised so many questions, they had to call and do a conference call interview last week before they made a final decision!!

Well, if I didn't get in, then you will not be checking in watching me complete two of my major goals for the year: Moving to Denver, and Going to the School of my Dreams. I guess I will have to come up with crazier goals for the year to keep your (and my) attention.

Bungy Jumping anyone...

I need a new computer....

I need a new computer...

Bad...

Really bad...

It is now starting to affect both my personal and professional relationships.

I can tell. I have to use the receptionist's computer at work when she is not there, and I can totally tell that it is getting to her. There are too many files that she doesn't recognize. Things are rearranged, and she has now stopped talking to me. Hey, I'm sorry, but I need a machine that is hooked up to a zerox! I don't think I am too hard to deal with. But it is still annoying to have someone else constantly in your space. I can respect that!

So now all I have left is my husband's computer which is in the basement. And super cool cause he has it projected onto the wall. Facebook is "Super Facebook" on this computer. The problem here is that I can't really do anything here either. First, this computer doesn't have any of the programs that I need for work. Nothing, not even Word. I also have to keep all the settings the same (not cause he demands it, cause I'm a cool wife!) which makes everything, and I mean truly everything harder.

For example, not having my own computer has made this blog and everything about this blog harder to accomplish. I can't keep track of workouts, calorie intake, or post every business day like I hoped. I also have tons of pictures and videos that I would love to get up here that can't happen. And research for individual projects are harder to find time for. If anything, it is slowing this process way, way, way ,way, way down.

So what do I want. I want a Mac. I want a Mac Laptop. And I want a new cable to my external hard drive so that I can get that back online. Dog ate the cable. Thanks Dog for kicking me when I was down. Totally appriciate it, and will remember it the next time you need help with something. Like getting your ball from behind the hope chest. Good thing your super cute and sleeping at my feet. That makes up for anything.

So that is my frustration for the day. And why so far 6 weeks have gone by in this year and I am behind on many of my goals. Hopefully soon I and everything else will be back up to speed, and we'll be back rolling.

***Don't forget to vote in the side bar for what you would like to see me do!! You get to pick***

24. The Year of Jack Bauer.

As I nurse a headache and drink green tea, I am still in awe...How did I manage to have such a great birthday?!

Everything was in the works for it to be awful. Tons of snow. Barely any RSVPS. Struggling with a dirty house. Yet some how I got more than 10 people in my house. That never happens!! And I was nervous because the group of people I had was so diverse and different, but not only did everyone had a good time, they socialized with each other and had more of a good time.

There are of coarse the awesome awkward moments that made the night. Me trying to open a bottle of champagne with my pocket knife. My mother thinking that nearly all my male friends were gay. Karaoke. Getting my sister's boyfriend to buy me an $8.00 drink. My sister telling me not to eat my birthday dessert and my best friend telling her to shove it!

So to everyone everywhere who wrote me, facebooked me, came out with me, bought me drinks, gifts, or even just showed up: The little girl inside of me says thank you. Thank you for providing me with memories that will last a lifetime and correct the damage of the past, and right a few wrongs.

Thank you.

Oh, and starting now, If you get in my way I am going to cut out your eye and scream, "WHO ARE YOU WORKING FOR?!"

"Lindsay if you didn't have bad luck...."

"Then you wouldn't have any luck at all."...My mother said this quote to me every February 13th for as long as I can remember.

Tomorrow is my birthday. February 13th. What I think is the prettiest sounding day in the whole year. Where the "f's" and the "th's" sound great together to sound out my perfect pretty day! Kinda....sorta...fine not really!!

I have had some of the worst birthdays on record. Seriously, awful birthdays. In fact my birthdays were so awful that I did not celebrate my 16th, 17th, 18th, 19th, or 20th birthdays. I let them come and go, having a special dinner with my family but nothing else. I was so tired of having bad birthdays that I just stopped having birthdays at all.

To prove my point, let me share my record of bad birthdays:

7th- Had a seizure at my birthday party. That's right, a seizure!! At my own birthday party!! Ended up in the hospital for a few days for tests.

8th-All invites went out and no one showed. My parents were left explaining why...

9th- Got pulled down the hallway by my hair by my sister and made to do the dishwasher.

10th/11th-Actually really good. Might be my best birthday...Roller City, skating and cake. This birthday was SOOO good I can't even remember which birthday it was!!!

12th-Slumber party. Most popular girl in my class wanted to ruin my birthday, through a valentines day party the same day and invited everyone but me. 2 of my best friends came to my house. I didn't care until Monday when I heard how cool the party was and that I was the only one with no invite.

13th- Invited 25 people. 4 came. Found out later that because my 13th birthday landed on Friday the 13th everyone thought I was bad luck and no one came.

14th-Got canceled 3 times. Once cause my mom got sick, next cause I was sick, then again because State Swimming was that weekend. The next time we could have it was in April and two months later seemed ridiculous for a party. The girls I invited all took back my presents since I was too "lame" to throw a party.

15th- My parents decided to take hold of my birthday by throwing me a surprise party. They invited 75 people including my entire youth group and swim team. They rented out the community house expecting huge numbers. 14 came. I got my quarter map this birthday though, THAT was really awesome.

16-20 - Birthday IGNORED!!

21st- Really Freakin' Awesome. Totally Awesome. I had the best time Since Roller City.

My last few haven't been good either. 22nd, I had a party that was a bust. 23rd, I had a dinner that many couldn't (in some cases wouldn't) attend, even though I drove to Laramie to make it easier on all of them. And now this year I am trying the whole party thing again, and again I am getting nervous. With all these years of bad birthdays I have to believe that my mother thinks that I am a complete goon with no friends.

Which is wierd, cause if there is anyone who is fun to party with, it's me!! And if there is anyone who knows how to throw a good party, again, ME!!! I rule at both those things. Then why do I have such a hard time getting friends over to my house for those days to happen? I don't know. But it is starting to snow, I have very few RSVPS and all the recipes cooking for another, bomb loser birthday.

So here is the question of the day, how do you not put your self-worth in your birthday; when you love so many different people and they overlook your one day?! I don't know how to prevent myself from doing that. Especially when I see other people able to get their people together. But I just can't seem to get everyone together for my events. After A while, don't you think it would have to do with me?

I don't know, what I do know is that I am tired from workouts. And I pray tomorrow turns out different. 24, I don't think I am going to wear it well.....

I am SOOOO over it.....

Lindsay: You know when I am tired of making cookies?
Rick: When?
Lindsay: My cookies start to get thicker.
Rick: You're thicker.

Awe, husbands! You have to appreciate the silly stupid things they say. I also have to explain that my husband will use this joke set up all the time.

You: I think it's burned.
Rick: You're burned.
You: I don't know, she just seemed melancholy.
Rick: You're melancholy.

All the time. In fact, many of Rick's good friends know that they can barely get through a conversation with him without using this joke format. So when he used it last night regarding my weight and my cookies, not even thinking about what he was saying. I couldn't help but laugh out loud. Silly husbands!

But it still doesn't change a simple fact. Like the fact that I don't shop in clothing stores anymore, or that I dread being seen in public by old high school classmates. The fact that I hate mirrors, and getting into the shower. I am SOOO freakin' over being fat.

I am so over it. I am over it like people are over the stock market, or their bosses, or cancer. Everyone is over cancer. And I am so over being fat that it is starting to make me physically ill. And I am getting the same comments that I always do. "Oh, Lindsay you can barely notice." "I think you are beautiful no matter what." Blah, Blah, Blah. Though I thank all of you for your love, support, and sweetness; it does not change the fact that I notice everyday, and I don't feel beautiful, and that I feel like a prisoner in my own body.

I'm over all of it. I am over spanx, size 18s, plus size sections, tummy flattening jeans, tummy flattening swimsuits, awkward conversations, skinny sisters, stretch marks, not being able to wear horizontal lines, praying for a thyroid problem, I am over all of it!!!

Being fat sucks!

Today is a new day. There is no food in the world that taste good enough to feel this crappy about yourself. I am going to break free of this. If it's the last thing I do!!

Rant is over.

A BIg Waste of TIme

Alright. So there has been this list being bounced around on Facebook.com. It's kinda annoying. You write 25 Things about yourself and then tag 25 people. All was fine and Dandy until I got tagged a gazillion times to do it. So I decided that I was going to show this list whose the boss; and I did 125 things about me!!.....And wasted five hours.

So to make myself feel better about the five hours I'll never get back, Here the premiere of 125 about Lindsay:

#1. I have a deep unconditional love for Batman. I feel that there is a lot of things that we can learn from Batman when it comes to Changing the world and how we must discipline ourselves to do just that. Whenever I am discouraged I watch Batman Begins or my Batman Cartoons on DVD.

#2. I am fascinated with domesticity. I love learning how things were done before there was a grocery store or a Target. Because of that I have become highly proficient in Crochet, cooking, baking, and canning. If the world ends, I'll be able to feed and cloth everyone.

#3. I love coins. I like to collect them. Part of this is whenever I got stressed out as a child I would count the coins in my piggy bank. Now I collect rare coins and piggy banks. But they have to look like a pig.

#4. I have chronic nightmares. Because of this I have to severely censure what TV and movies I watch. It's the only way to control it.

#5. I used to despise my father. I went out of my way to avoid him. He is now my best friend. He is truly a dying breed in America of people who didn't go to college, yet can make a good living just with hard work and skill.

#6. As much as I sometimes complain I absolutely love my job and couldn't imagine doing anything else.

#7. I feel most relaxed and like myself when I an wearing Tie-Dye.

#8. No matter what color medium I am using; I HAVE TO organize it by colors of the rainbow. I have done this forever. Picture 6-year-old Lindsay with a 64 color crayon box. It would take me a whole day.

#9. I believe that my dog was personally created by God just for me.

#10. I hate poverty more than anything in the world. It makes me truly angry and I want to do everything I can to provide and advocate for people.

#11. I can sing kind of well. But only to Jesus songs.

#12. I believe my older sister looks like Britney Spears before she met K-Fed.

#13. I REALLY love British television.

#14. I'm really not funny, I just say whats in my head. It sometimes gets me in trouble.

#15. I still have all the stuffed animals that I loved as a child.

#16. I've always wanted Dread Locks. Ricks says that they are nasty, that's why I've never done it.

#17. I don't like Planet Earth, because for 45 minutes they make you watch a poor Polar Bear walk around and die. Thanks Planet Earth. Thanks a lot. You have no soul.

#18. The way I picked my sponsored child from World Vision was he was wearing a batman t shirt.

#19. I lay down in the shower. Before you judge you should try it yourself. It's freakin' awesome.

#20. I still won't watch movies that terrified me as a child. this includes but is not limited to: "Who framed Roger Rabbit?", "Disney Pinocchio", "Howard the Duck", and "Gremlins".

#21. I have child like tendencies with everything. Disney World is a mad house, and there are toys everywhere in my house. Have you seen my Gumby set?!

#22. i believe that the reason my family is so crazy and close is because of our Hispanic heritage. I may not look it, but the influence is definitely there.

#23. I love trashy reality TV. This includes "The Hills", "Rock of Love, and "Jon and Kate plus Eight"

#24. I have watched "Days of Our Lives" regularly since I was 12 years old.

#25. I have been the same height since the 5th grade.

#26. I'm allergic to Chap Stick. The only thing I can use is Burt's Bees.

#27 My eyes are Blue and then turn Brown toward the center.

#28 I Met my husband when I wan a Junior in High School.

#29. Once I see Europe, I will be willing to have a baby.

#30. I used to know all the dances that *NSYNC did. Thank God, I have lost that ability with time.

#31. I am so over my weight. But I'm pretty successful at not letting it define me or my worth.

#32. My favorite book in the bible is the Book of John.

#33. I love Jam bands. Especially Blue Grass Jam bands. That's just joyful.

#34. I naturally reject conformity. It is why I don't have my ears pierced and why I went SO long without getting an Ipod. I don't like to be like "Everybody else". It is also the one thing stopping me from getting my tattoo.

#35. I have not watched "Doctor Who" Since David Tennant announced he was leaving. I am still mourning.

#40. I love broccoli.

#41. AS a child I was freakishly quiet. My mother would loose track of me often, and have to find me in the house.

#42. As a child I used to tie my barbie dolls to the legs of chairs, tables, bedposts. My mother thought I was going to be a serial killer, and even asked the pediatrician about it.

#43. I love green so much, I have to be careful when decorating my house or else all rooms would be green themed.

#44. My mother hated many things in my Wedding until the Day of. She thought it was going to be ugly. Afterward she was able to admit that it was very pretty and very Lindsay.

#45. My life has pretty much gone how I had hoped. I wanted to be married really young and it has been awesome.

#46. My mother has taught me the majority of the bad words I know. Thanks mom ;)

#47. Rick has taught me the majority of the big words I know and when to use "good" and when to use "well".

#48. On the ACT I got a 28 in Math, a 26 in English and a 14 in Reading.

#49. I loved My college years but I do not ever want to live in Laramie again.

#50. If I ever get rich I would like an Apartment either in DC or in New York.

#51. I want to adopt a child from Asia. REALLY REALLY BAD. I even have a Chinese baby carrier.

#52. When I am bored I like to bust out in song to the opening song of the Lion King. It always makes people Jump.

#53. I think the funniest think that I can do as a big sister is sneeze on my little sister. The funniness of the situation multiplies if she is driving.

#54. I love Mariah Carey. Her songs got me through Jr. High.

#55. I won royalty in High school and it was one of the worst nights in my high school career.

#56. I can't drink alcohol anymore. Every time I try it makes me WAY sicker than it used too. I am now reserving alcohol for shots with my Dad and the occasional slow beer.

#57. I did not celebrate my 16th, 17th, 18th, 19th, or 20th birthdays.

#58. I love Martha Stewart. I think that she is smarter than anyone gives her credit for.

#59.One of my female heroes is Gilda Radner. She was one of the original cast members on SNL and wrote for both them and Second City.

#60. Another one is Queen Elizabeth I. That woman kicked serious butt.

#61. My favorite animal is the frog. In elementary school I used to always have a stuffed frog in my pocket. It made sixth grade easier.

#62. I swam in high school and was team captain my senior year.

#63. The best way I know how to so my love is through "mothering" people. That's why if you are my friend you have more than likely gotten baked goods from me. If not, ask for baked goods and you shall receive.

#64. I make really good jam. And Usually make it to Jam Band music. HA!

#65. I need an average of 10 hours of sleep to get through the day. Rick hates that about me.

#66. I love the Today Show. I have watched it everyday since college.

#67. I have tried out for the "Real World".

#68. A hippie tried to fight me once at a Tom Petty concert. Tell me that's not ironic. And very disrespectful towards Tom.

#70. The worst person I ever saw in concert was Andrew W. K. There is a good reason why he is not making music anymore.

#71. The second worst concert I have ever been to was Slightly Stoopid. Their fans suck, and are super rude.

#72. I cannot say the best concert I have been to. But two of the greatest times were at moe. and Yonder Mountain. And the Stones.

#73. I love tea. It makes me feel like I am back in China.

#74. I like Dunkin Donuts coffee better than Starbucks.

#75. I don't like pork dumplings. They were the one food that made me deathly ill overseas. Looking at them makes me nauseous.

#76. I get nauseous every time I drive to the airport to fly out. This is because when my mom drove me to the airport to fly to China for the summer I got so nervous I threw up.

#77. My medicine cabinet still has tons of medicine I got when I was overseas. The Chinese know how to design things that will clean you out!!!

#78. I watch "What Not to Wear" in hopes of dressing myself better.

#79. I love Old Navy. The majority of my clothes are from there.

#80. The majority of my clothes used to be from salvation army or from hippies, until i got an actual adult job.

#81. During college it was REALLY rare when I would shower two days in a row. Many times I would forget when the last time I showered was.

#82. In the winter, the homeless of Laramie would sleep in the Basement of my apartment building. I never told my parents cause I knew they would make me move.

#83. In college I glued my tongue to the roof of my mouth using denture glue. I was stuck so long my friends almost took me to the ER.

#84. I have had three near death experiences. I am on my forth life.One of my near death experiences was me accidentally hanging myself in the woods. Long story, just know I didn't mean to and that I gave my dad quiet the scare.

#85 I used to win the UW Stand Up Comedy contest in help pay for stuff in college.

#86. The way I got my puppy was that my dad accidentally shot my old dog. It was the first time in a long time I was mad at my father. To make up for it he let me pick any puppy I wanted out of the litter his dogs had before he put them on sale. I picked Lucy right when she was born. We have in insuperable ever since.

#87. I really want to have a Tree House Office.

#88. My favorite Disney movie is Robin Hood. For me Robin Hood will always be a fox.

#89. I can sleep anywhere. I have a pretty impressive list of all the weird places I have slept in.

#90. My favorite Nintendo games are the Zelda Games. They are all pretty similar but all just as fun!!

#91. I have all of my parents bad characteristics. Its a running joke in my house.

#92. I am also terrified to pass them down to my kids.

#93. I am really good at Guitar Hero and the Guitar in Rock Band.

#94. I don't like flip phones. They are too tiny. That's why I was so excited for the Envy to come out. The block phone was back!!

#95. The best meal I ever had was at Rumba's Cafe in Washington DC. If I can I would like it to be my last meal on earth.

#96. My Christmas tree matches and I love it!! I always wanted a theme Christmas tree.

#97."Bohemian Rhapsody" is a song that really relaxes me.

#98. I have never smoked Pot but I did experience a contact high at The Rolling Stones Concert my mother took me to for my 18th birthday. And like a good mother, she bought me Wendys afterwards.

#99. I think wearing glasses is more environmentally friendly than contacts. That's why I wear glasses.

#100. I find it peaceful to travel alone. But always enjoy traveling with friends. Or Husbands.

#101. I like candles that smell like apple pie.

#102. I love NBC Nightly News with Brian Williams. I do my best to watch it every night.

#103. I Check www.cuteoverload.com everyday. It is super cute!!!

#104. My mother never let me watch beauty pageants on TV growing up. I would always try to spend the night at other girls houses so I could watch them. Never worked.

#105. I am a certified substitute teacher. I would I would get more jobs cause I am kind of broke!

#106. I bought a diamond ring with my high school graduation money. That way if I ever really needed money I always had something to pawn. If I had it to do over again I would have bought stock in Google.

#107. I'm allergic to all medications with Sulfa. Another bad characteristic from Dad! ;)

#108. My favorite number is 13.

#109. I turned 13 on Friday the 13th. Everyone at school thought I was bad luck and no one came to my party.

#110. I graduated with eight letters on my high school Letterman's jacket. Four in swimming, One in Speech and Debate, one In Theater, and Two in Improv. I was a huge nerd! I'm still a huge nerd.

#111. I'm gonna change the world! I just know it.

#112. I used to be able to speak Chinese really well. Sadly, I have lost that with time.

#113. I cried when I saw my first Claude Monet in person.

#114. I buy a shot glass for my dad from every location I have been to. This way when he is old and drinking with his friends he will be able to remember all the places I've been.

#115. I bought Disney's Christmas Carol so that my future kids could watch it. It's a lot shorter than I remember.

#116. I miss Tim Russert every Sunday.

#117. I hate Trivial Pursuit. I am really bad at it and hate loosing.

#118. I have my debit card memorized. This is both very handy and very detrimental to my financial world.

#119. I fast on Good Friday. It just seems right.

#120. I want to be the mother of little boys. They are so sweet and so much fun. And I will be really good a 5 year old football and my knowledge of comic book heroes will make me cool.

#121. I love the month of May I think it is the Prettiest month. Everything Blooms and makes me happy and allergic. But most of all happy.

#122. I want a tree in my yard that Blooms flowers but is strong and short enough for children to climb.

#123. I love love seats. Its like someone made a couch that's Lindsay Sized.

#124. I miss doing Improv onstage. That was the hardest thing to let go from high school.

#125. From March 21 to the time it snows I NEED to be in some type of sandal. In fact that reminds me that I need to get my Chacos resoled. Maybe I'll just get a new pair. You can never have to many Chacos.

There's a blog for ya!

A Day in DC part II

So here it is. The new day. The dawn.

I'm sure you are wondering how we were able to get a picture of such beauty. One filled with hope and anticipation. Well, there is one easy answer. You get up real freakin' early...

Our day started at 3:30 in the morning. Real Freakin' early right? We wanted top make sure to get to the train the minute it started running, which was 4:00am. Also known as real freakin' early. There were a plethora of people on the train. But we got to our spot and we were in line by 4:30 for our section, the silver section. They call it silver to make you feel better about being in the last section. But hey, we had tickets!! Alot of people we met the day before did not.


So we stood in line, and then in a security spot and then in a gated section and then another gated section and then our final section for 6 hours before anything happened. And when you are waiting in the cold for hours, with no real food, and everyone wanting to see the same thing, a lot of people start to act crazy. LOTS!! There were people trampling each other, trampling the disabled, I saw (and yelled) and people trampling this guy that needed medical attention!! This is where I started to wonder if I paid a lot of money just to put me and my friend Anna in harm's way. But in the end people settled down before it started and we had a pretty good show.YAY ZOOM LENS!!! We were right after the reflecting pool by the capital, which comes in handy for later!! At this point everyone starts calming down and making camp. People are joking, laughing, being excited. I was pouting because I got behind someone who was 6'4". I offered him 10 bucks to let me be in front of him, and he let me for free!! Thank God!! Because it would have been an awful morning if he hadn't.

When the events started it kind of seemed like a fairy tale. Before I knew it I was thinking about all the doors I knocked on, all the miles I've driven, all the phone calls I made, and standing before everything that I had so personally strived for; it all seemed worth it. This day wasn't about who was right or wrong. Who lost or who won, or whose party was better. It was about a new beginning. A better future for my Dad, and for my family. It was about a better life for all. It was....peace....

And right after Obama's Speech that peace was broken by more Peoples' crazy actions! Before we knew it, people were pushing us forward, trying to get closer to the action. The Disabled were trying to get out of the way while Anna and I got pushed closer and closer to the barricade. It was then I made a decision: Do I stay here with the crazy pushy mob? Or do I jump the barricade and go skating on the reflection pool? I picked option B, Jumped over the barricade, and onto the frozen waters of the reflection pool. It was frozen solid and I was free from all the chaotic danger of the crowd. Anna followed behind me. It wasn't an easy climb. since we has stood for 8 hours our legs forget what it was like to bend. But we made it.

I have video footage of people skating around on the ice to get away and also just enjoying the happiness of the day. Once My computer is unbroken I'll be sure to get it up here. People Skating with Joy, hope, and nervous that it might be illegal. I am so glad we were able to get out here to see it.

Wow....

Waiting...Blows....

Waiting sucks....

Alot....

Especially when you are waiting for an event and you don't even know how it is going to go. It's one thing to wait for a concert. You know how that will happen. You wait, and wait and wait. And then the lights go down and you CHEER and enjoy the rest of the evening. Yet, waiting for the outcome of something is much more difficult. I am currently sitting on my rump waiting. For my answer from Denver Seminary.

It's hard not to let your mind wonder with "would ofs" or "what ifs". "Did I use grammer on all my essays?" "Did I mention this on my application?" "What if they know I don't always wash my hands after going to the bathroom?" It is enough to drive the normal person insane.

While waiting, I have noticed that people will do different things to occupy their time, or to get their mind off things. Some read magazines, others do crafts. I do something that is totally out of my character. I clean. Everything. Dishes counters, anything with dirt gets clean or thrown away. It feels very productive and as though I am being constructive with my time. And makes me feel better about myself...

The other thing I will do is will come up with really bad ideas. This is also used as a distraction tool. It usually starts with internet shopping, "What can I buy that I can't afford?" Perfect. Then this will escalate into, "What are other really bad ideas I can look into that are both destructive for me, my wallet and my marriage?" I came up with tons!! Like, buying a new wardrobe, or a $1500 computer, or I know!! I'll go to Bonnaroo!! Cause all of those are really constructive.

Essentially when I am in waiting I am like a person on meth picking at their scabs. It seems like a good idea. But in the end I am no better off then I was.

Denver Seminary says that I should know by my birthday. Which is very soon. And also sets up for a bad birthday. We'll see...

I have decided though to add hippie music festival to the list.

Celebrities Being Silly.....

Oh, Celebrities!!

Did you forget?! Did you forget who you are? You're cel-e-brit-ties! This means that we follow your every move, action, dietary plan, work-out schedule, dating schedule, court schedule, and any other schedule that you may abide by. And now thanks to little tiny cameras on phones and trashy sites like TMZ.com we can even find out MORE about you.

So did you really think that wouldn't noticed that giant bong on you're face? ::snickering::

Or that one of your buddies, you know, maybe the nice trustworthy one that sold you the pot wouldn't take a picture of your mug in the act? ::laughing::

Or that it was a good Idea? ::I just peed a litte::

Of coarse we would notice. Not only did we notice, it is the only thing anyone has been able to talk about for the last three days. Its like nothing else has happened. Nothing at all, certainly not the superbowl!!!! That's right Mr. Anonymous 8-gold-medalist-athlete, this is bigger than the superbowl. People are talking more about the pipe to your face than the E-Trade Baby Adds!

You're so silly!!



But we have other silliness happening!!

Oh gee golly Batman....It seems we have been a wee bit....unprofessional

Do we always yell at people who walk into rooms? Are you trying to set a trend? Kind of like on the show "Cheers", but instead of yelling "NORM!!" you yell expletives repeatedly at the person until they cry? No I get it, totally radical new idea. And you're right it will totally set you apart from other celebrities! Angelina has babies and you have......this.

But I have to say Batman that I tried it today with my boss and it didn't go over very well. In fact at the end he had things to yell back too! Like, "write up" and "probationary status". Maybe he's trying out a new greetings too!

Seriously though Batman...You are not cool enough to demand that people be fired. If you were, the guy would be fired.

So stop being so silly!!